Society, Policy, Structure, and Self

 All my life I have been called an old soul or a child of nature. In elementary my friends were in middle school, middle school, they were in high school, and finally high school, they were in college. I was quick to grow up, not because, my environment was horrible and terrible, just because I wish to experience a much life as I can. So I could be prepared for the coming waves. 

Some people would say I chose a path, that was not the easiest. However, all I chose was to be me. To some groups of society, as a tall black man, I should be watched, or something to fear. In other circles, I should act as a man should, and not flaunt my feminine side, and then some circles would rather I burn for my beliefs. I am a gay man, a man of many designs, a magician who proudly practices his art. I try to accept all for who they are, for as long as whom they are don’t oppress or hurt others. 

It is my policy the one should never stop growing, however, in some aspect of society we have done just that. From the “Orange Regime,” many have witnessed the ugliness that is out there. That people who are different and don’t conform to the structure that society dictates because they were not born with a specific color palette, deserve less. That, which should be equal for all life, only extends to a select few. And, at that same time, those people who live in shadows, and those who believe they live in the light. It is an endless, exhausting thing that I see every day. It makes me ashamed to be apart of this species. I’m not saying one should forget, but one should let go, I mean what are you getting? If this is honestly making you feel better, then I pity you. I pity both sides. It is my policy to not directly interfere, so all I can do is write about my feelings on the subject. 

You may ask why I don’t if I have such a strong feeling on the subject. To truly discover one’s self, it not an easy thing. You have to question every word that was taught to you, right down to every atom that help you develop the very pattern of thoughts you have developed. Question all that you love and who loves you. Bonds will be broken, and some will be beyond repair. However, it a path no one besides yourself can take you down. Not your mother, father, or lover. Just you.